I previously featured author Janet Buttenwieser’s essay, “The Colostomy Diaries,” on a Narrative Medicine Monday post. Today, I’m pleased to highlight her similarly humorous and heartfelt memoir, GUTS.
Buttenwieser writes with a comfortable familiarity, weaving candor into her story of misdiagnosis, treatment and loss. I felt like I was reading the words of a dear friend; Buttenwieser is authentic and relatable. She navigates the foreign and often perplexing world of medicine as a young patient, stricken with a debilitating illness. She finds herself getting regular CT scans and under the care of a surgical resident, contemplating operative measures: “I decided right then that I liked the resident better than my regular doctor. In my growing survey of medical professionals, I’d begun to notice a trend. The younger the doctor, the more he or she listened to me. They asked questions …”
I was particularly struck by a passage where Buttenwieser describes her overhearing a paramedic relay her emergency case to the hospital where the ambulance is transporting her to. He uses the common medical term “chief complaint.” She bristles at the phrasing, stating “I feel angry at the way we patients are portrayed by the medical establishment as whiny toddlers who need a nap. Patient complains of gunshot wound to the head. Patient complains of missing limb following leg amputation.” There is phrasing that becomes commonplace during medical training, traditional wording that is passed down in the name of congruity. To an outsider, though, I can appreciate how unfeeling much of this must seem. Medical-ese leaves much to be desired in the realm of patient-centeredness.
I was privileged to meet the local author briefly at a book signing and will attend a book club this week where she will also be in attendance. I admire her writing skills as well as her contribution to an important perspective – that of a young patient. GUTS has solidified its place among my favorite narrative medicine memoirs, including In Shock, When Breath Becomes Airand On Call.
Writing Prompt: Have you encountered a certain trend among medical professionals, as did Buttenwieser? Do you agree that younger medical providers are better listeners? As a self-proclaimed rule follower, Buttenwieser finds it difficult, especially early in her bout with disease, to advocate for herself or question her initial physician’s diagnosis and treatment plan. Have you faced a similar challenge in the medical world? Write for 10 minutes.
She lays out her highlighters, gathers her papers. She attended a review course with peers months ago, took notes from the lectures, sitting three quarters of the way back where she always can be found. She’s sorted the lecture slides, distilled the notes into neat documents organized by medical topic. She prepares to study.
The stillness is deafening. I startle to someone coming up behind me until I realize the swishing is from my own skis, legs scissoring across the powder, cutting into the silence-laden air. My quadriceps, my calves burn under layers of cotton, of smart wool. My nose ignites with the chill of exposed skin, nares dripping with shock. I pull my hood tighter, cocooning my half moon ears.