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Narrative Medicine Monday: Foley Catheter

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Poet Kimberly Johnson shares the experience of caring for her husband during his cancer treatment in “Foley Catheter.” Johnson writes about a different kind of intimacy, that of a caregiver for a loved one.

She begins with the mechanics of cleaning her husband’s catheter with “kindliest touch,” changing the drainage bag. This interaction creates a different dimension to their partnership. The poem is a kind of contemplation on marriage, on how we care for those we commit to even as their bodies fail, are transformed: “When I vowed for worse / Unwitting did I wed this”. Johnson writes with tenderness, but also refreshing clarity that this “jumble / Of exposed plumbing” has not been an easy experience to maneuver.

In reading Johnson’s poem, I think not only of the different intimacies of marriage, but also the vulnerability that arises between patient and clinician. Each day patients confide in us, let us care for their bodies, share things that they are sometimes unable to share with those closest to them. It is a privilege, a gift, and, at times, a heavy weight to carry.

Johnson’s honesty reveals a different kind of intimacy that arises out of caring for her ill husband. As his nurse, this other connection “Opens—ruthless and indecent, consuming / All our hiddenmosts.” She ends with the words we use, tying the tenacity of a tumor to that of the cherished spouse: “In a body, immodest / Such hunger we sometimes call tumor; / In a marriage / It’s cherish. From the Latin for cost.”

Writing prompt: If you’ve cared for a loved one who was ill, how did this interaction alter or add layers to your relationship? Has intimacy ever cost you anything? If you’re a healthcare provider, what are the benefits, or the drawbacks, of being exposed to patients lives and bodies in such a profound way? Has that experience changed you or the way you interact in your personal relationships? Write for 10 minutes.

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Narrative Medicine Monday: The Name of the Dog

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In The New England Journal of Medicine essay “The Name of the Dog,” physician Taimur Safder remembers a lesson learned early in residency. Safder is stumped when, “as a freshly minted doctor,” he presents “a patient who was admitted for chest pain after walking his dog” and his attending asks a curious question: “‘What was the name of his dog?'” Safder is initially perplexed as to why this question even matters, but when the attending physician takes the group to the patient’s bedside to inquire, he realizes that very question “led to a transformation I did not fully appreciate at the time: there was an actual person behind that hospital-issued gown.”

This lesson proves valuable to Safder’s medical training. Through it, he forms similar connections with patients that allow him to “have difficult discussions about [the patient’s] immigration status and what it meant for his treatment plan,” and sign a “treaty under which [Safder] would read the ‘studies’ [the patient] brought in about black cherry and milk thistle and she would start taking one new medication every 2 months.” In learning about a person beyond their identity simply as a patient, trust develops and the patient-physician relationship can grow.

While caring for a patient who eventually ends up in hospice, Safder comes to another realization: “the question that I’d been carrying around since my first day of residency could work another type of transformation: it helped my patients see the person behind the white coat.”

Writing Prompt: Has there been a question you’ve asked a patient that revealed essential information about them as a person? Have you, as a patient, been asked a question by a medical provider that may not have seemed directly medically relevant but was important to them understanding you as a person? What was the question? What did it reveal? Write for 10 minutes.

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Narrative Medicine Monday: What I Would Give

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Physician and poet Rafael Campo has published several collections of poetry and prose. In his poem “What I Would Give,” Campo outlines the “usual prescription” given by physician to patient: “reassurance that their lungs sound fine” or “that the mole they’ve noticed change is not a melanoma…” He instead would like to offer them “my astonishment at sudden rainfall like the whole world weeping” and “the joy I felt while staring in your eyes as you learned epidemiology.”

Campo’s poem makes me think about all that we give to patients with each interaction, each hospitalization, over decades of caring for a patient and their family. Should we reorient the standard prescription for cure? As a patient, do you get reassurance from your medical provider? Comfort? What would be the best prescription?

Writing Prompt: If you could give anything to your patients, what would you give? As a patient, what do you expect to receive from your physician? What gives you comfort? Write for 10 minutes.

You can read more about Rafael Campo and his thoughts on the intersection of poetry and medicine in this interview with Cortney Davis, whose work I’ve featured on a previous Narrative Medicine Monday.

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Narrative Medicine Monday: Of Mothers and Monkeys

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Caitlin Kuehn’s essay “Of Mothers and Monkeys” draws parallels between her research work with macaque monkeys and her mother receiving treatment for breast cancer in the same hospital. As her mother starts chemotherapy, Kuehn “rotate[s] between the animal ward and the human ward.”

Kuehn wrestles with the ethical ambiguity faced in animal research. Thinking of her own mother’s reaction to chemotherapy, she darts off to her work in the research lab, wondering “what animal first shared with my mother that sudden fear of a throat closing in… I realize that I—as a student, with very little power but a whole lot of responsibility—am complicit in a moral choice I have still not taken the time to make. Some days it is hard to remind myself that medical research has a purpose. Some days it is as clear as cancer. Some days I just do not know.”

When Kuehn’s mother needs injections to help boost her immune system after suffering from a serious sepsis infection, though Kuehn “could do a subcutaneous injection in the dark,” she becomes “shatteringly nervous” whenever she has to give her mother injections; the familiar activity takes on a different tone.

Kuehn’s mother begins to rely on her to answer medical questions, but Kuehn’s scientific expertise is limited to “what I have learned in my undergraduate science classes, or here at the lab. All of it applicable only to non-human mammals, or else too theoretical to be of any use for as intimate a need as this. I have no good answers.” I was struck by the fact that often, even for those of us who have extensive medical knowledge and training, we still lack “good answers” to those questions posed by suffering loved ones.

Kuehn has a strong reaction when her mother declares that she’s fighting her cancer for Kuehn and her sister: “She’s pushed her will to persevere off onto my sister and me. It’s too much pressure to be somebody else’s reason.” Have you ever been somebody else’s reason for fighting for survival? Did you have the same reaction as Kuehn to that kind of pressure?

Writing Prompt: At one point Kuehn responds to Domingo’s convulsions in the same comforting way she does when her own mother’s throat begins to swell during her chemotherapy: You’re going to be okay.  When a patient or loved one has been faced with a particularly challenging moment of illness, is there a mantra you’ve repeated to them? To yourself? Did it help? Write about the situation. Alternatively, reflect on Kuehn’s statement that “death is a condition of life.” Write for 10 minutes.

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Narrative Medicine Monday: When Patients Mentor Doctors

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“When Patients Mentor Doctors: The Story Of One Vital Bond” tells of physician Aroonsiri Sangarlangkarn’s longitudinal relationship with a patient she comes to call a friend. The bond between them affects her views on what can be gained through understanding patients on a more personal level.

Sangarlangkarn first meets Roger as part of a medical school program that matches up aspiring physicians with geriatric patients who provide mentorship on medicine from a patient perspective. She then encounters him again after she has finished her training and he is hospitalized under her care. She reflects on the value of her deep knowledge of his personality and history.

I liked reading about Sangarlangkarn’s own lengthy description, written years prior as a medical student, of the patient’s social history. It included intimate details such as Roger’s parents’ names, his boyhood aspirations and his favorite board game. When I was a medical student I remember taking a very detailed history of a woman who was in the hospital for treatment of her malignant tumors. I spent over an hour with her, just chatting with her about her history. No physical exam, no review of medications. The final typed up document I turned into my advisor was over two pages long. Now, as a busy primary care physician, I, like Sangarlangkarn, can see how the emphasis on efficiency causes time constraint that makes it difficult to have meaningful patient-physician conversation that could contribute to helpful personal knowledge. Sangarlangkarn laments that “our interactions with patients have become so regimented and one-dimensional that we no longer get to know the multifaceted person outside the hospital.”

What do you think about Sangarlangkarn’s suggestion regarding the value of patient home visits? This is often done for patients in hospice care or who are unable to physically get to a clinic. Home visits because of the time they require seem much more costly to the system but Sangarlangkarn argues that the value – the ability to get to know the patient on a different level – provides invaluable information. She writes: “To effectively provide care for someone, it’s important to learn who they are, what they eat, how they breathe.” She, in fact, due to her detailed knowledge of the patient, is the only one who eventually can get him the end of life care and support he needs.

Writing Prompt: Think about a time you visited an ill person at home, whether that be an apartment, house or adult family home. Describe what you saw, what you smelled, what you talked about, how you felt. What do you think can be gained by entering into a person’s living space? Alternatively, consider a patient you’ve known for years, maybe decades. What do you know about that patient because of a longitudinal relationship that might be of benefit to you if you had to deliver bad news or discuss different treatment options or medications? Write for 10 minutes.

 

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