Poet Kimberly Johnson shares the experience of caring for her husband during his cancer treatment in “Foley Catheter.” Johnson writes about a different kind of intimacy, that of a caregiver for a loved one.

She begins with the mechanics of cleaning her husband’s catheter with “kindliest touch,” changing the drainage bag. This interaction creates a different dimension to their partnership. The poem is a kind of contemplation on marriage, on how we care for those we commit to even as their bodies fail, are transformed: “When I vowed for worse / Unwitting did I wed this”. Johnson writes with tenderness, but also refreshing clarity that this “jumble / Of exposed plumbing” has not been an easy experience to maneuver.

In reading Johnson’s poem, I think not only of the different intimacies of marriage, but also the vulnerability that arises between patient and clinician. Each day patients confide in us, let us care for their bodies, share things that they are sometimes unable to share with those closest to them. It is a privilege, a gift, and, at times, a heavy weight to carry.

Johnson’s honesty reveals a different kind of intimacy that arises out of caring for her ill husband. As his nurse, this other connection “Opens—ruthless and indecent, consuming / All our hiddenmosts.” She ends with the words we use, tying the tenacity of a tumor to that of the cherished spouse: “In a body, immodest / Such hunger we sometimes call tumor; / In a marriage / It’s cherish. From the Latin for cost.”

Writing prompt: If you’ve cared for a loved one who was ill, how did this interaction alter or add layers to your relationship? Has intimacy ever cost you anything? If you’re a healthcare provider, what are the benefits, or the drawbacks, of being exposed to patients lives and bodies in such a profound way? Has that experience changed you or the way you interact in your personal relationships? Write for 10 minutes.