Narrative Medicine Monday: Preparation

Abigail Lin’s poem “Preparation” in the Journal of the American Medical Association begins with a heartbeat as the focus of a medical student’s studies. She notes “we studied valves as if they were pipes: / what makes them rust, or clog.” There’s a note of bravado as the student starts their journey in medicine: they “marveled… as if we had built it ourselves.”

The humility comes later, realizing the fallacy in believing that “we could learn the architecture of grief / simply by examining blueprints.”

I remember marveling at the intricacies of design in my college introductory biology courses. I had in mind that I wanted to be a physician, but one of my most surprising revelations was learning about botany. I was amazed by the specificity of design in plants, the complex workings of how they grow, receive nourishment from the sun, from the rain; how they give back to the earth.

Lin’s poem is a caution to new medical providers. Much of our learning is in the machinery of the patient, the inner workings of the body. So much more is involved in treating the patient, not merely the disease.

Writing Prompt: If you are a medical provider, recall when you first started studying medicine. Were you naive, as Lin’s poem asserts? Is there something you’ve studied that you’ve marveled at? Did you learn a more nuanced appreciation as you progressed in your career? Recall an instance that contributed to that maturity. Write for 10 minutes.

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Narrative Medicine Monday: And Still We Believed

Emergency physician Dr. Rebekah Mannix relays the story of her teenage goddaughter who developed vomiting and eventually a dire diagnosis of metastatic cancer in JAMA’s “And Still We Believed.”

Mannix finds herself researching experimental treatments, hoping for a “miracle,” but unable to find any in the medical world: “We did not comprehend that someone so healthy and vibrant…could succumb.” Even after the patient was transferred to comfort measures only, Mannix admits she “still wasn’t ‘there’ yet.” “Even as I knew she would die, I believed she wouldn’t.”

Mannix speaks to the idea that even as physicians, as scientists, we “know better” but still our humanity takes precedence over logic and understanding. There is a lesson here for medical providers. Patients may comprehend what we tell them, but they might not always believe it: “Even as they sit holding the hand of a loved one on a morphine drip–whose organs have shut down, whose words have ceased–they still may not believe death will come.”

Writing Prompt: Have you ever experienced a dire diagnosis for your yourself or a loved one and not believed it? If you’re a physician, how can we best navigate supporting a patient or their family when, despite clear evidence to the contrary, they “still believe.” Write for 10 minutes.

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