Writing Through COVID-19

Like many people lucky enough to have a backyard during this time of pandemic, we’ve spent a lot of time working on the yard, creating space for the kids to run and play and take in the fresh air, get grounded in the earth. I’ve found this essential for myself as well, digging in the previously neglected raised beds, planting flowers and greens in the hope they will grow something new out of this time of desolation. I’m lost when it comes to gardening but, like many things during this season, have tried to embrace anything that offers potential for nourishment.

Usually for me that’s writing, taking pen to paper and letting myself discover what needs to be said. Lately though, I’ve been overwhelmed with ideas—for essays, for poems—but only fragments come out. I’m not sure if it’s the uncertainty of the time, or my life at this moment, or if it’s just there’s too much to write about, too much to process, too much to share. I’ve struggled to find creative space, both physically and emotionally.

Part of the backyard refresh, in addition to the basketball hoop, the dedicated fort-building trees, the shuffling of deck furniture, is a repurposing of a small shed. Cleared out of old bikes, shovels, cracked pots, and campfire wood, the whitewashed space now houses a seafoam writing desk and lilacs blooming at an opportune time. With this space, and the online offerings below, I find I’m emerging from a writing hibernation of sorts, finally having some urge to create.

During this time of pandemic, I’ve found so many generous spaces for writers to connect virtually. I’ve “met” with writers’ groups, both local friends well-known and those from all around the world. One thing I’m grateful for during this time is that many of the classes and gatherings I’ve longed to be a part of are now available via Zoom: Columbia University’s Narrative Medicine program has several offerings a week, Toronto’s Firefly Creative Writing has moved writing sessions online, Stanford’s Medicine and the Muse offers a weekly writing and sharing group that has been encouraging and approachable, Suleika Jaouad’s Isolation Journal email prompts have featured some of my favorite writers and thinkers.

I’m hoping to get back into a regular cadence of Narrative Medicine Monday posts and even Free Write Friday prompts, with a COVID-19 theme. But I’m also letting myself be fluid during this time, resting when I need to (anyone else find they just need naps in the middle of the afternoon no matter what the day holds?) and not demanding so much of myself—that I should be writing more or should be homeschooling in a certain way or should be innovating at work or should be anything other than what I need to be in this moment to move forward.

Here are some resources I’ve found that have provided writing community and encouragement to get pen to paper, finger to keyboard, soul to rest. Some are geared toward healthcare workers, but there are also opportunities for the general public looking for a creative space.

Be gentle with yourself, and those around you. May you find the space for rest and growth and the hope of creating something new.

The Isolation Journals: Author and speaker Suleika Jaouad will send you a daily thought and prompt from an inspiring writer, artist, person of note.

Firefly Creative Writing: Early morning (for us west coasters!) collective writing sessions, a prompt and 20 minutes to write together, to benefit small business rent relief.

Writing Medicine: Saturday morning time for healthcare workers and their families to write and share, led by Writer in Residence Laurel Braitman (who also has a wonderful TED talk on Storytelling and Writing) at Stanford’s Medicine and the Muse program.

Columbia Narrative Medicine: Virtual book club & narrative medicine writing sessions led by faculty and alums of the original program in the traditional style of close reading, discussion, writing, and sharing.

Hugo House Quarantine Write-in: One of many online offerings from this prolific Seattle writing community. Check out their classes, virtual happy hours, and other events too!

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Narrative Medicine Monday: Burnout in Healthcare

I’ve wanted to attend Columbia’s Narrative Medicine workshops for years. Life finally aligned to make that possible this past weekend as I joined professionals from different disciplines gathered to address “Burnout in Health Care: The Need for Narrative.” As a wellness champion for my physician group, this year’s topic was particularly pertinent to my work and practice.

The conference consisted of lectures from leaders in the field of narrative medicine alternating with small group breakout sessions. I was fortunate enough to have Dr. Rita Charon, who inaugurated the field of narrative medicine, facilitate two of my group’s sessions, which consisted of close reading and reflective writing and sharing. This format allows for in depth discussion with medical and humanities professionals, as well as time for introspection about how best to expand on learned concepts and practices when we return home.

Several takeaways for me:

Narrative can be used to address many issues in healthcare, burnout among them. I’ve been facilitating a Literature & Medicine program for my own physician group, and have taught narrative medicine small group sessions to resident physicians, but am inspired to do more of this work to expand the reach to medical professionals and patients. Dr. Charon encouraged us to disseminate the skills deepened through the humanities, that these are what’s missing from a health care system that has become depersonalized. Skills learned through narrative medicine can improve team cohesion, address moral injury and bias.

Writer Nellie Herman offered Viktor Frankel’s words: the primary force of an individual is to find meaning in life. Herman showed us how writing can help us find that meaning, giving shape to our experiences, our memories. Harnessing creativity can be particularly important for those of us who experience moral injury because “when we write, we externalize what is inside us.” Through writing and sharing, we’re making a commitment to something, a raw, less mediated version of events. Through this vulnerability we connect to others; though difficult, that’s what makes it valuable.

Dr. Kelley Skeff approaches burnout and narrative from a physician educator’s perspective. It is not lost on anyone who has been a medical resident or trained them that “we have trained people to take care of patients, even if it kills them. We have trained people to keep quiet.” Skeff offers us this quote from Richard Gunderman: “Professional burnout is the sum total of hundreds and thousands of tiny betrayals of purpose, each one so minute that it hardly attracts notice.” He implores us to combat the code of silence and ask ourselves and each other: What’s distressing you?

Maura Spiegel contends that “narrative language can proliferate meaning.” Spiegel used film clips to show how we can gain access to our own experience. In watching a film, we’re not called upon to respond, but we are often running our own parallel stories along with the movie. Spiegel showed clips from the movies “Moonlight,” “Ikiru,” and “Philadelphia,” and the documentary “The Waiting Room.” In that final clip we saw a young doctor run a code in the Emergency Room where a teenage boy dies. He then is tasked with telling the family the devastating news. He seeks out support from his colleagues on how to do this. Spiegel notes a quote from Jonathan Shay: “Recovery happens only in community.”

I was bolstered to hear about he the work of Craig Irvine and Dr. Deepu Gowda, who discussed how to create a culture for narrative work, both in academic institutions and in clinics. Dr. Gowda explored using narrative medicine sessions with the entire medical team (including nursing staff, administrators, physicians) and found improved teamwork, collaboration, and communication. Both suggested building a team of people interested in narrative work, be they art historians, philosophers, writers, physicians, or psychologists.

More than anything, this workshop churned up ideas and inspired methods that could be used at my own workplace to use narrative work to address burnout. I came away encouraged and connected to colleagues who are interested in the same questions and in addressing the daunting problem we face in our current health care system. Ultimately, we want to “allow voices to be heard, and address suffering, not only of patients but also of medical providers.” This work is challenging, but necessary. As Tavis Apramian noted in the final lecture of the conference, “the meaning that we draw from other people is the reason to keep going.” That it is. I hope to continue learning about this important work and am grateful for the faculty at Columbia who inspire tributaries (or rhizomes!) of narrative and creativity throughout the medical world.

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The Artist’s Way

At the beginning of the year, I stumbled into a group working through Julia Cameron’s prolific The Artist’s WayThe premise is that we’re all created to be creative, that along the way our artistic self becomes “blocked” and, through a process of exercises and exploration, we can unleash our underlying creativity, transforming our own life in the process. It’s an involved undertaking, which I tackled in characteristic too-fast-out-of-the-blocks fashion.

I had heard of Cameron’s book but didn’t know much of what it was about when I agreed to commit myself to the group and the process. I’ve found the “Morning Pages” Cameron endorses a cathartic free-form journaling that does serve to unearth our core stumbling blocks and greatest desires in life. I’m recalling previous passions and brainstorming ways I could incorporate these childhood joys into my adult life: writing and playing music, performing elaborate plays, detailed needlework, making bracelets, dancing.

I have to admit I was skeptical at first. Despite being a life-long journaler with a history of a strong spiritual faith, I initially found some of her observations and suggestions new-agey and impractical. What modern professional parent has time to write three pages every morning and take their inner artist on a weekly date? I’ve since come around, appreciating the thematic chapters and exercises, the encouragement and confidence instilled that we are all creative beings, most content and most ourselves when we find ways to weave artistry into our lives.

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