Author Pam Durban tries “Solving for X” in her nonfiction piece in Brevity. Durban tells us that she’s “never been good at word problems,” the kind that involve trains and “variables of time, speed, and distance.” At seventy years old, she is now able to “manage the simpler calculations” such as knowing that she “doesn’t need a dental implant that lasts fifty years.” At her current age, though, she finds some of these “word problems of life” are riskier and “always end with an unsolvable X–the date of her death.”
Durban muses on how to manage these unsolvable Xs. She experiences a bout of amnesia in an E.R. and recalls an uneasiness with the concept of eternity, finds her “multiplying Xs” just as unnerving. Durban masterfully gives us a glimpse into the mind of a woman in the last part of her life, but highlights that even nearing the end, the question of time can be perplexing, unsettling and stretch out into the future.
Writing Prompt: Have you calculated, like Durban, your need for a thirty-year roof or if you’ll be around for the next solar eclipse? Can you relate to Durban’s unease with “multiplying Xs?” Why do you think she “sees a way” in the memory of returning to her father’s grave? If you are a medical provider who cares for elderly patients, what can you take from Durban’s essay that might be helpful in how you approach patients who are making decisions about medical care and treatment plans? Write for 10 minutes.
